Dear Blog,
I’m sorry I’ve neglected you….it’s been so long and way overdue for me to visit you. I’m sure my readers are wondering if I’ve fallen off the face of the earth…haha that’s funny! No one reads this. But, that’s quite okay with me. Honestly the only reason I started this blog was so I could release some emotions and insights I’ve encountered in my life. It’s refreshing to write and if someone happens to stumble across it and gains some knowledge or perspective well then I’m pleased to have shared.
….I’ve really been dealing with some anxiety and have found myself in a bit of a “funk” lately and just simply put…discouraged. I got to relax this weekend though. Spent some very quality time with one of my favorite people! ( : “What did you do?”, you ask. Absolutely nothing…we did what we do best. We drove around all over God’s creation, windows down, music blaring, smelling the fresh country air while enjoying each others company. It was so rejuvenating! I’ve missed those times we got to spend together…but when you grow up life gets so busy and it’s hard for us to find time to see each other. I had a friend tell me a week or so ago that I needed to take some time for myself and get back on track…and this was definitely a step in the right direction!
The fear and anxiousness I’ve been feeling is unnecessary because I have a God of perfect love- and perfect love casts out fear. We are not made to worry alone. I was able to express my worry with a friend and finally felt encouraged. My reading today was about worry [in which i was reassured that my God has perfect timing]; I was reminded that the Spirit uses people in our lives to “cast out fear.” I needed to find hope again. And in doing so, I must “step out in trust-move forward, embrace my challenges despite my anxious thoughts.” If we live in fear our negativity will overwhelm us and the condition of our soul will languish. “Fear is the dark room where negatives develop.”
“Life is too short, joy is too precious, God is too good, our soul is too valuable, we matter too much to throw away a single moment of our one and only life on anxious striving.”
The Proverbs say it well, “An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up.” (Proverbs 12:25) May I strive to be encouraging and positive as I push forward to be the person I want to be, the person I’m supposed to be.
May we meet again soon Blog!
Love,
Niki
